Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone!!!

so I have a slight confession to make....I am slightly embarassed at this fact, but after hearing all the hub dub about the book series Twilight and the movie I decided to check it out for myself. I thought the whole premise was pretty dumb, I mean a girl dates a vampire. Anyway, the last week of school one of the girls on my floor who also felt the same way about the whole twilight phenomenon decided to buy the book to see what it was all about. Well that evening while trying to decide what movie to watch we all decided that we could see the movie to see what the big deal is. Well we had a couple hours to kill so one girl suggested that she should read us a bit from the book. Sarah ended up reading a couple of chapters. They were very good. Then we saw the movie. Ended up being really good too. So monday I decided to buy the book myself and read the rest of it. Got so entranced that I finished the 500 page book in one day. The book also included the first chapter from the second book so I read that chapter too and now I have to read the second book. Walmart didn't have it so I ordered it off of Amazon and it is supposed to arrive tomorrow, actually it was supposed to arrive yesterday but the weather caused delays. Anyway, I haven't been able to really concentrate the past couple days because I want to find out what happens in the book.

So yes, I am slightly ashamed to say I am becoming a big fan of Twilight. Let's just say it's more than a simple, girl falls in love with a vampire. the book is great not because the guy is a vampire but despite the fact he is. It is a really great love story and I do think if any of you girls are in need of a book to read, you should maybe give the book a chance. oh and please don't make fun of me for liking it....believe me I never thought I would in the beginning lol.

anyway I hope everyone had a great Christmas and is staying safe traveling!!

CandyLand

So I decided to teach my nephew Will how to play CandyLand because that used to be my all time favorite game when I was little. Well now it is Will's favorite game ever. Now all I hear from him is "Amanda, I want to play CandyLand. Can we play CandyLand?" I forgot about how I always wanted to play when I was little and never could get anyone to play with me. Reason being, I wanted to play all the time. So I guess if anyone needs me, I will be playing CandyLand for the rest of my break....lol!

Maggie,

I know it's a day early, but I am not sure if I'll be able to get on the computer early enough tomorrow to say this. Anyway.....



HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAGGIE!!!!!!!!

No Motivation

I have like zero motivation to study, so here is one of those little thingies to pass the time

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the meme as well as the person you got the meme from.

It's weird how some of the songs line up and make absolute sense. And then sometimes they don't make any...

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Snails - The Format

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Summertime Girls -LFO (hehe, i am a summertime girl who wears abercrombie and fitch...ok, maybe that's a lie)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The Ocean - Mae

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Dirty and Left Out - The Almost (aww sad....)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Chase This Light - Jimmy Eat World

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Testing the Strong Ones - Copeland

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Call of the Wild - Bastian

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
What I've Been Looking For -High School Musical (yes I do have a couple high school musical songs on my ipod....guilty pleasure, very guilty lol)

WHAT IS 2+2?
A Hard Day's Night - Beatles (Oh math, giving me a hard day's night)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I Write Sins Not Tragedies - Panic! At the Disco (I completely forgot this was on my ipod)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Perfect Situation - Weezer (if only i had the perfect situation with him...)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Face Down - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (aww sad again...)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Rush - Aly & AJ

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Beautiful Disaster - Kelly Clarkson

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hold Me Down - Motion City Soundtrack

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Wannabe - Spice Girls (HAHAHA this is a definite yes!!!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Testing the Strong Ones - Copeland (I thought I had this one earlier....)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Reclusion - Anberlin

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Unfaithful - Rihanna (whoa now...I am not unfaithful lol)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
SOS - Rihanna (she is another guilty pleasure of mine)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Last Call - Mae

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Our Time Now - Plain White T's

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The Unwinding Cable Car - Anberlin

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
In Too Deep - Bastian

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Santa Clause is Thumbing To Town - Relient K (yes santa having to hitch hike on Christmas Eve does make me cry)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Frosty the Snowman (he got married, so why can't I?)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
O Holy Night - NSync (hmm, I don't think Jesus being born scares me...just me missng the rapture scares me)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Paperheart - All American Rejects (sad day...)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Tailor Made - Colbi Callet

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
I Guess It's Christmas Time - NSync (Christmas doesn't hurt...)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Leave the Pieces - The Wreckers


yeah i was this desperate to get away from studying

i'm not going to tag anyone because everyone has been doing a lot of tagged surveys so you can do this only if you want to. merry christmas!

FINALS!!

So tomorrow are my two hardest finals. right in a row. Theo at 10 and psych of religion at 12:30. and psych of religion is all essay and i have to memorize my answers. thats a lot of info to cram in to my head with 5 memorized essay answers.....and i have to know it all at the same time since i dont' have enough time to memorize those essays after the theo exam. anyway, tuesday I have my last final at 10 which i haven't even finished reading the chapters or made notecards from my notes. i have a feeling that is what i will be doing tomorrow. Also with all this studying, i have to tear down christmas decoration, clean out my mini fridge, prepare my room in case i get a roommate next semester (although my chances are slim to none consiidering there are tons of empty rooms on our floor plus underclassmen without roommates) which means I have to cram all my stuff into one closet, clean off and out one desk and clean out two dresser drawers. Plus with all this cramming I have to pack and clean everything. so basically the rest of today and tomorrow will be very very busy. but the good news is, as soon as i am done with my final tuesday at 10 (which i should get out around 10:30 cuz tests in there don't take that long) I get to be on the road back home. which means around 4 I will be home tuesday!!!!!!!!!!

in other news, my brother is driving back home from his roadtrip. last time i talked to him he was an hour or so past albequerque, nm, which means about 10 or 11 hours away from my school so 15 or 16 hours away from home. keep him in your prayers because of all the winter storms he has the possibility of running into. he had to drive through one last night that was pretty bad. and that storm is supposed to hit here in mo late tonight which is when he will be coming through.

tiffany tagged me

1) Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate? hot chocolate
2) Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree? he wraps because unwrapping the preesents is so much fun
3) Colored lights or white? umm colored but i do like white lights too
4) Do you hang mistletoe? I didn't...I should have, and then invited boys to my room
5) When do you get out your decorations? right after thanksgiving
6) Favorite holiday dish, excluding dessert? ham!! lol, i love me some christmas ham
7) Favorite holiday memory as a child? waking up really early and making my brother mad
8) When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? I never did really believe, my parents never stressed santa, i just saw him in movies, but i never wrote him letters or left him cookies
9) Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? This is how christmas works in my family: on christmas eve we go to my grandma eversole's house and open presents there with all my cousins, then on christmas morning we open presents at my house (well now my sisters house)
10) How do you decorate your trees? normally i start with the lights, then the ornaments, then the star is last
11) Snow, love it or hate it? i like it for christmas, but i hate driving in it because usually there is a layer of ice underneath
12) Can you ice skate? nope. last year was the first time i went, and it wasn't for very long. i stayed by the wall or held on to someone
13) Do you remember your favorite gift? ummm nope...i dont think i ever had a favorite. oh wait, it was my lion king sleeping bag from my grandma
14) What is the most important thing about the holidays for you? Jesus' birthday!!!
15) Favorite Holiday dessert? cookies!!!
16) Favorite Christmas tradition? opening presents christmas morning
17) What tops your tree? a star! (sometimes an angel)
18) What's better giving or receiving? Giving
19) Favorite Christmas song? o holy night
20) Candy Canes, yummy or yucky? yucky. i don't like mint, and i don't like the sticky mess
21) What do you want for Christmas? money for kenya
22) Do you attend an annual Christmas Party? umm dont have an annual one, just go whenever people invite me
23) Do you dress up for Christmas eve? nope
24) Do you own a Santa Hat? no
25) Who do you normally spend Christmas with? family!!!

Time to tag people

and i think everyone has been tagged :(

What Is the Obsession with 3AM??

Ok, so I figured that maybe I'd be able to sleep throughout the whole night because my wallmates are done moving things around. So no more vacuuming at 3:30AM. Well I went to bed around 11:30 last night and about 3AM I suddenly am woken by those airhorns, screams, and fireworks. Why? I have no idea why. I look out the window to try to make some sense of these loud obnoxious noises and all I can see is some fireworks outside the all guys dorm. I don't see anybody aroudn or anything. but it lasts a good 10 min or so. Very loud, very obnoxious. Definilty made me angry once again. Don't people know people had finals early this morning that they needed sleep for? I guess no one is very considerate of others any more at 3AM. Apparently 3AM is no longer a time for sleep but mischief............

A Rant and a Rave

Ok, so it is 3:30AM!!! Must people really vacuum at this time at night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It wakes me up and I have to be up in less than 5 hours for a very busy day tomorrow (or today). the girls right next door (who share a wall with me right next to my bed) are vacuuming and m oving things around. Why? because one girl is moving out into annother room and another one moving in. You do not do this kind of activity in the middle of the night during quiet hours!! Oh my goodness I'm so mad. I started to go over there to ask them to not use the vacuum, but since its the a girl who is moving on to my floor who I don't know very well, I do not want to make her mad at me. but seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is this a sign of what it is going to be like next semester, cuz if it is I am buying earplugs, but of course if I do, there is a good chance I will not hear my alarm and sleep through class then get terrible grades all because of a couple of inconsiderate people living next door.

Can you tell I am a grouch at 3:30 in the morning when you wake me up from deep sleep after only a few hours of sleep????? I have reason to be people!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think I may just go over there anyway......I mean I am in the right! I just hate being the person with all the complaints, but I am in such a terrible mood!!!!

christmas decor

So I really hate doing homework....I have a hard time being motivated at this point in the semester. Just 2 papers to go and finals. Anyway, to prolong the paper I'm working on just a little bit more, here are a couple pictures of the christmas decorations in my room that will be up for only one more week. I haven't been able to figure out how to rotate some of these pictures.

Everybody's Working For the Weekend!

So I am excited about tonight. I decided to host another Office party in my room since its the last Friday we will have open dorm night this semester (yes Evangel has only a few nights a week where guys can go into girls rooms and girls into guys') I'm hoping people show up. I know for sure of 5 people coming, and one of them is supposed to bring her boyfriend (Daniel) who came earlier this semester when I had my other Office Party and if he comes he is supposed to bring friends so he isn't the only guy. I had my friend invite Craig, and she said he was really excited, but then realized he couldn't go because he has a christmas concert tonight (he plays french horn maggie ;) ) lol. Anyway, I'm excited about tonight and I am ready for this weekend, of course I'll be doing homework for the rest of the weekend because I have a 6 page paper on gender identity disorder due next friday and a 2 or 3 page paper due for another class a week from Monday, plus finals begin next friday. It will be a nice to have fun one last time before i have to kick into overdrive to get things done lol.

In other news I got a letter today from one set of grandparents with a check for my Kenya trip! I sent out letters the beginning of this week so I'm excited to already get some money. The Lord will provide!

Hope everyone has a safe and fun weekend!

My Nerves!

So tonight I had to present my research for my school. I was soooo nervous! At the conference I went to a couple weeks ago, we only had like 12 or 15 people, today there were tons more plus some of my professors. Me and my partner had to go first too so it made it even more nerve wrecking. Luckily the stats proffesor couldn't come tonight because he asks the hard questions about the statitstics of the results. But one of my teachers did ask some questions but I answered them. He tried to ask something where he had the significant differences wrong and I was like, "nope that is not the group we had a difference in" lol. basically our study showed if the message delivery type had an effect in retention of sermons. we had three groups: audio, audio/visual, and typewritten. Audio people remembered more than type written so when he was asking a question he was mentioning audio visual and I had to explain that audio visual was not significantly different from either two and that it fell in the middle. He then tried to argue that typewritten is a type of visual so I said "for our study audio/visual was when they watched and listened to the sermon" lol. Then in one of my discussion questions that was a part of my presentation I suggested a possible reason for why people retained more who were in the audio as opposed to the typewritten. He asked me what research I had to back up that reason and so I just said, "I don't, its just speculation" lol. Basically I think he was just trying to get me to defend my results, and I think I did a halfway decent job, I just felt like I was arguing with my teacher which was awkward because I don't ever do that. But he did compliment the complexity of our designed and said that it was really well thought and planned out. We were the only group he complimented out loud to. All in all it went well. I'm glad its over and the nerves are gone.

In other news I've decorated my room for christmas. sad thing is the lights are not staying up on my window or my wall. I made a star out of christmas lights and it won't stay up. It makes me sad to remake it 2 or 3 times a day....:( but i do love my tree and my nativity scene!!!

oh and tonight was our campus's tree lighting ceremony. Not too many people went, but we sang christmas songs. it was fun lol.

time for bed!

We Have to Deliver Ourselves

So tonight I was talking to my suitemate (who recently broke up with her boyfriend) about what she should do. I admit the past week or so I have been pretty bossy telling her "no don't text him", "don't call him", just a lot of don'ts. I have apologized and told her that I only tell her all of this because I am trying to look out for her. She says she agrees with me, but she still can't stop thinking about different things which makes her decide to go against what I tell her to do. Anyway, I'm only mentioning all of this because this has been what is on my mind and tonight the devotion I read got me to thinking a lot about us taking control over our own lives.

So the devotional I read contained these two lines: "God will not discipline us, we discipline ourselves," and "God delivers us from sin, we have to deliver ourselves from our individuality." We've all heard the phrase "we must die to ourselves" Paul is constantly talking about how we are to stop living by the flesh and live by the Spirit. I have always pictured God as this guy who when I am going through a difficult time comes and just makes life a bit easier. I know that as Chrsitians we still suffer and that we will go through difficult times, but I have always invisioned God's role in those difficult times as a Savior. Granted Jesus is our Savior, but a Savior from death and sin. Jesus doesn't keep us from sinning, He is there to provide a way to God and forgiveness. There is still something we must do.

We have to put forth effort to chang our own thoughts and actions. God can't make us do what we don't want to do. When we tell God we can't do something it is because we won't. Surrendering takes action. We can't ask God to surrender for us. Yes, it is hard. God isn't just going to say, "Sorry it's hard, here let me change things and make it so it is easier." No, He wants us to do those things that are hard. I am not saying that He won't be there holding you up, walking beside you along the way. Sometimes we expect God to change our circumstances. He never promised to change them, He only promised He'd help you and be there to pick you up when you fall. He's there to forgive you when you sin, but He won't make you stop sinning. That is your job. When Jesus came, He didn't change the laws. He didn't make the circumstances easier. He provided a way to God, for forgiveness. Because of Jesus, we can turn to God for help to do the things we need to do. We need to get rid of this idea that we can ask God to do these things for us, to take away the thoughts we don't want, or to make the bad things in our life to go away. What we should be asking God for is the strength and the help that we need to be able to get rid of the thoughts ourselves and make it through these bad times in our lives.

2 Corinthians 10:5 "We demolish argumetns and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." --according to Paul, God doesn't take our thoughts captive and make them obedient to Christ, we do. We need to stop being lazy and expecting God to make the changes in our lives when we are to make the changes ourselves, with His help.

I'm tired

Here are some pictures from roommate a date, im sure you have probably already seen them off facebook. Front seat: craig (my date) and of course me. Backseat from left to right: Stephen (Hanna's date), Brandon (Jessie's date), Hanna, and Jessie

Hanna wanted a picture of me and craig and we didnt' know what to do for the picture, so then brandon walked up and just picked both of us up....yeah, so that is the last picture.

Oh and the Psych confrence today went really well!

I Need More Sleep

its after midnight and I am blogging....and i have to be up in about 7 hours to go to a psych conference where I have to present my research project. bleh!

anyway, tonight was my floor's "get your roommate a date" (also known as GYRAD for short). The theme was the Amazing Race and we had a picture scavenger hunt. I had never met my date before tonight. he seemed like a pretty cool guy. very outgoing. he also was very awkward, which was fun cuz he said and acted what i felt haha. i drove and two other couples rode with me. so we stuffed my car full. I don't know my way around this town, and im bad at directions so lets say everyone enjoyed making fun of my cautious, erratic driving. Missed tons of turns and got confused very easily. We all had a blast though. one of the girls in my group took all the pictures so as soon as i get them, I'll post them up. anyway me and my date craig seemed to hit it off pretty well. we got along great and had the same sense of humor. one of my friends pointed otu how we lagged behind a lot. i guess we just walked slower than the others and talked more. we also would go off on our own at some of the places. i guess i just didn't realize it lol. anyway, at least i made a new friend. sad thing is he lives on the other side of campus and all his classes are on that side of campus because he is a music ed major. so he only has one class on the north side of campus so i probably won't see him very often cuz im never on the south side except when i go to chapel. lol, he told me before he left tonight that he only comes past the clocktower (it sits at the middle of our campus) after 5:15 on a couple of days lol.

basically i had a lot of fun tonight. and this guy would be one that i wouldn't mind hanging out with more.

and im really nervous about tomorrow (well technically today cuz its after midnight). i hope everything works out well

its almost thanksgiving!

I am so excited that it is almost Thanksgiving and I get to go home and see everyone again! The thing is I have been listening to Christmas music lately so it will feel as if I am coming home for Christmas which is disappointing that it isn't Christmas yet.

I am excited that the hard part of the semester is almost over. This week I have 3 tests (just took one today so 2 more) and on Saturday I have to present my research at a conference which is kind of scary to think about and I have to finish preparing all of that. After this week, I just have random tests here and there. I am not going to be really busy again till finals.

Another thing that excites me is my schedule for next semester. I am only taking 4 classes and one is a grad class. I won't have any classes on Tuesdays and on Thursdays I'll only have an evening class (which is sad cuz this means I'll miss the office, but I can always watch full episodes online). And two of my classes should be pretty easy. Also next semester I will be going to Kenya over spring break. Also very exciting!

I have also found a couple people who might get an apartment with me for next year when I go to grad school. I am excited to actually live on my own (not in a dorm room). It is kind of scary but exciting at the same time that I'll finally be an adult.

Basically, all in all I have so much to look forward to.

Tag You're It

Maggie tagged me, so here is the game: the rules are that when you are tagged you have to share 7 things about yourself and then tag 7 other people...

1. This may come as no surprise, but I am a very picky eater. The only vegetables I like are corn and lettuce and I only eat lettuce with a lot of salad dressing. My favorite food of all time is chicken strips. I'll go eat anywhere as long as the restaurant has chicken strips and most likely that is what I'll order. I don't like chinese or mexican. I do however like Italian food, usually I'll eat fetuccini alfredo.

2. I was homeschooled until 2nd quarter my 5th grade year. I did enjoy being homeschooled because it meant I could get all my assignments done in the morning and do whatever I wanted in the afternoon. Not that I didn't like public school either, it was just nice to be able to do homework at my own pace and not have homework in the evening after school because I got it all done in the morning.

3. I absolutly love Christmas music. It is my favorite time of year because it gives me an excuse to listen to it. I'll admit I have even occasionally in the summer listen to a Christmas song or two. Christmas music just cheers me up and makes me happy.

4. I have completed a full blown research study and I get to present my findings at a couple of conferences and in front of my school. Even though it is a lot of work and I hate speaking in front of people, I enjoy it because I feel like I've accomplished a great task. Even better, I found some significance in my study!

5. I enjoy cleaning. It may come as a surprise especially if you have been to my house and seen my room. Here at school I clean at least once a week which includes cleaning all of the bathroom including floor and vacuum my room. During the week I try to keep my room as tidy as possible even making my bed. I find cleaning as a way to release stress and I all around feel better. Lysol dissinfectant spray happens to be my alltime favorite because when I use that in the bathroom and on my sink after cleaning, I feel like my cleaning is complete because all the germs are gone (or at least 99.9% of them).

6. I have chronic pancreatitis. No one still knows the cause of it because it is heretic and I have no family history of it. The doctors are still trying to figure it out. I haven't had an attack for a couple years now and I hope I don't have another one ever again.

7. I hate crying in front of people so even when I am in a lot of physical pain I will hold back my tears. Now this does not hold true when I am home and in front of my parents. Something about the presence of my parents makes me want to cry more when I'm hurt. Same holds true when I am upset about a situation. I will not cry in front of anyone. Once when I was 8 I jammed my finger during softball practice when I put my hand in my glove before the ball came and it hit my finger. Everyone asked me if I was alright and I told them I was because I figured if I didn't everyone would call me a baby just like my brother and sister did at home. Because I was 8 and in a lot of pain, I passed out on the field a few minutes later.


ok, I don't have anyone to tag because pretty much everyone has been tagged that reads my blog. so basically if you haven't done this yet and havent' been tagged before, then tag you are it.

Change is a coming...

So disappointment in the election results, but God can use Obama just as much as He could use anyone in the presidential seat. Our country needs prayer no matter who are leaders are. They still need our prayers. Now I may joke around about our country becoming communists or things like that, but I still know, at the end of the day, God is in control.

I can go on and on about politics, but I won't. I am sure everyone has read and heard enough about the topic for a while. In other news, one of my homework assignments this week was to read a book called "The On-Purpose Person" It is a really good book. The book has a few exercises to help us become on-purpose people. First it says to create a want list by category: health/phyiscal/recreational, financial/material, family, vocational/career, social/community, spiritural, mental/intellectual, and other. After you create this list you figure out which want in each category is the most important in your life. Then the most important want in each category become your core wants. Then you can figure which of those core wants is most important to you. The book then tells you to create a schedule for your on-purpose day designating time to each category. It was really cool to realize how much of a conscious effort it takes to actually make time for the things most important to you. The book then asks that you create on-purpose statements. Here are mine:
Purpose Statement: I am here to be a positive influence on others through love and encouragement
Vission Statement: To listen, love, and encourage others
Mission Statement: I perform my purpose as a daughter, sister, aunt, friend, student, peer, and church member
Philosophy Statement: To model my purpose by keeping a positive attitude, doing what is right (honest, hard-working), and loving God
Commitment: To always do my best even if I don't feel like it. To make time for friends when they need someon. To avoid things that may bring harm to my witness. To spend time with God everyday. To not allow bad situations to ruin my attitude.

Creating these statements really got me to think more about what I do and why I do it and what I should do. I just felt this was a neat thing to share, because we all know we have a purpose. Even though we do things to fulfill our purpose, we don't really think too much about it. I mean yes my list of things is of stuff I idealy would do, but how often do I bring these things to the front of my mind? Not very often. Only when I make an effort to think about these things do I actually succeed at it.

Another thing I got from reading this book was this quote, "Pain is not something to avoid, but something to enter into with hope for growth and maturity." How true is that statement? We all have to face situations that are tough and hurt. We tend to dwell on the negatives of pain. When we do, we forget that it is these tough, painful situations that help build our character. Now I am not saying we should go and look for pain and be excited about it, but that when we are faced with these situations we use them to make us into better people.

You know what I just realized? What I just wrote, I can turn into my reflection paper on the book. Lol!

Maturity?

Now that I am almost 22, I think it is about time I begin acting like an adult. Ok maybe not all the time, but I have been more aware about the decisions I am making in my life. Over the weekend I made the decision not to be angry at someone who people would think betrayed my friendship and trust. Yes it is over a silly boy.... I guess thinking back, maybe I am still far away from being an adult :p Anyway, in almost any tv show or movie people watch, when a girl likes a certain guy and her friend knows it, yet begins to date the guy anyway, drama arises. I made a conscious decision and effort to make sure in my situation not to create drama. God wants me to be slow to anger. Sure the situation made me upset, but I chose not to let it take over and spill into my friendship with this girl. I talked to her about it and told her it is not my place to say who can or can't date and that I am not mad.

So with that decision, I felt as if I was maturing, but then something else happened this week that set me back in my maturity. I had a paper due, a theo assignment, and an essay test all on Wednesday. I had all of Monday evening as well as a full day on Tuesday to get all of this work done. Did I use my time wisely? No. I had zero motivation. Tuesday night came around and I was really stressed out. Lets say my test on Wednesday did not go very well and it is my own fault. The test was not hard, I just did not prepare for it like I should have. Why? Because I did not "feel" like doing any work when I had the time. Then it hit me, all this time I was proud of myself for acting mature with my relationships, and God was showing me I still have a lot of growing up to do. The adult thing to do would have done all my studying and homework even though I did not feel motivated to do it. There will be plenty of times in my life where I won't feel like doing something, but I have to do it anyway. If people did not do the things they didn't feel motivated to do, nothing would get done. I guess this just goes to show me, pride comes before the fall.

Well my friends (as McCain would put it), I think this is long enough for my first blog. Besides, I am currently using this blog as a way to procrastinate another assignment and I should probably get it done. Thanks for taking time out of your day to read considering I am sure there are way better things you could be doing than reading this.