Now that I am almost 22, I think it is about time I begin acting like an adult. Ok maybe not all the time, but I have been more aware about the decisions I am making in my life. Over the weekend I made the decision not to be angry at someone who people would think betrayed my friendship and trust. Yes it is over a silly boy.... I guess thinking back, maybe I am still far away from being an adult :p Anyway, in almost any tv show or movie people watch, when a girl likes a certain guy and her friend knows it, yet begins to date the guy anyway, drama arises. I made a conscious decision and effort to make sure in my situation not to create drama. God wants me to be slow to anger. Sure the situation made me upset, but I chose not to let it take over and spill into my friendship with this girl. I talked to her about it and told her it is not my place to say who can or can't date and that I am not mad.
So with that decision, I felt as if I was maturing, but then something else happened this week that set me back in my maturity. I had a paper due, a theo assignment, and an essay test all on Wednesday. I had all of Monday evening as well as a full day on Tuesday to get all of this work done. Did I use my time wisely? No. I had zero motivation. Tuesday night came around and I was really stressed out. Lets say my test on Wednesday did not go very well and it is my own fault. The test was not hard, I just did not prepare for it like I should have. Why? Because I did not "feel" like doing any work when I had the time. Then it hit me, all this time I was proud of myself for acting mature with my relationships, and God was showing me I still have a lot of growing up to do. The adult thing to do would have done all my studying and homework even though I did not feel motivated to do it. There will be plenty of times in my life where I won't feel like doing something, but I have to do it anyway. If people did not do the things they didn't feel motivated to do, nothing would get done. I guess this just goes to show me, pride comes before the fall.
Well my friends (as McCain would put it), I think this is long enough for my first blog. Besides, I am currently using this blog as a way to procrastinate another assignment and I should probably get it done. Thanks for taking time out of your day to read considering I am sure there are way better things you could be doing than reading this.
